Thoughts About Pineal Gland Cysts
Some Thoughts for Those with a Pineal Gland Cyst
Neurologists tend to ignore them, people don't understand all the symptoms, and doctors tell you to see a psychiatrist. Having something listed with the National Organization for Rare Disorders is not the most comforting thing. It isn't necessarily the end of your world either.
Not Much Help From Neurologists
This is a pivotal complaint from people dealing with a pineal gland cyst. When I first saw my neurologist, he thought I had migraines. It didn't make sense to me, but he's the brain doc, and I am a peon. To "ease my mind," he ordered an MRI, and he also prescribed anti-migraine medicine.
He was surprised when the MRI came back showing two issues: the pineal gland cyst and, perhaps from cerebrospinal fluid pressure, a partially empty sella sac. He was compassionate and said he wanted to do more research.
At our follow-up appointment, he told me the cyst was not causing my symptoms, that I was just anxious and needed a tranquilizer. Sigh.
He is a good doctor. His response is typical of most neurologists' responses. They don't know what to do. Very little research has been done on pineal gland cysts. Very little research has been done on the pineal gland period. So it isn't entirely their fault that they have no answers.
It's frustrating for us on the receiving end to be told our symptoms are figuratively all in our head when there is a physical problem in our heads. Until more research is done, and until more people keep pressing for better answers, we are somewhat stuck if we choose to remain in mainstream medical care.
Benign is Not Harmless
I never realized how different these two words could be. Having a cyst in my brain that is benign is different from having something harmless. "Benign" means the cells are not dividing and it is not eating healthy tissue. "Harmless" means it does not cause harm. A pineal gland cyst can cause significant harm, and in some cases, coma and death. With severe headaches, dizziness, visual disturbances, gait changes, head pressure, and fatigue, they can rob life, enjoyment, competence, and confidence.
So what can you do?
There Are Choices!
There are some options. Here are a few I researched. Please feel free to add others in the Comments Section.
One of my frustrations was that I found forums full of "Oh my God, I have this pineal gland cyst, and my doctor has said it isn't causing my problem!" There is little conversation about what helps and hurts. There is virtually no conversation about what the options are.
There are a handful of surgeons in the world who will operate on this. The best options are endoscopic and stereotactic surgery. They are less invasive and have an easier and shorter recovery time. I do not have health insurance, nor did I want to send my records all over the place and continue to get the same response.
I don't have health insurance, so I have looked at other options. There are several exceptional hospitals in India where surgery is an option, and I recognize this isn't necessarily the best choice for everyone. I keep it on my short list of possibilities if my first two treatment methods don't work. A hospital in England is also a possibility, although I don't know for sure that they will operate on this.
I have read that people who have had surgery have been healed of their symptoms, and their lives are normal after recovery. What is hard to find are the surgery stories that are not successful. It doesn't always work. Sometimes people go through surgery, and the pineal gland cyst comes back. Other times, other parts of the brain are damaged as a result of the surgery, and the person must then live with a different list of symptoms. For me, surgery is a possibility and a last resort.
I also looked at going to China for treatment. This is my next step if my current treatment doesn't work. I believe very strongly in a medical system that has been around for thousands of years, and there have been numerous positive reports of brain tumors being healed in qigong centers.
The ONLY downside of this protocol for me is being away from my home and dogs for a month or more. If it treats my problem, it is worth it. I am still considering going to China in addition to following my current treatment protocol as they do not contraindicate each other.
Diet and Nutrition
I am including this as part of my treatment now. I am a firm believer that many disorders can be helped by having a clean and healthy diet. My diet is strict. I drink 30-70 ounces of water a day—shooting for the high end and making it to somewhere in the middle. I have cut out wheat, gluten, sugar, alcohol, dairy, and yeast. I occasionally enjoy a glass of wine and occasionally have a small portion of cheese.
Yes— miss some things. I do, however, have a better grip on my symptoms. I've lost some weight, I feel leaner and stronger, and I think more clearly. I probably cheat too often to get the full benefit of my diet, and there is no doubt that my health has improved.
Many people with pineal gland cysts also see an ear, nose, and throat doctor, and some see an endocrinologist. For me, getting my endocrine system tested was crucial to feeling better. I was deficient in several important hormones, and my doctor has been great at getting my body regulated. For me, I think it is the combined pineal and pituitary problems, not just the pineal gland cyst, and because so little is known about the pineal gland, I believe it has more functions in the body than we know. Remember, an absence of evidence is not evidence of absence.
Faith and Belief
I believe our thinking has an impact. I am not so totally open to metaphysical or New Age thought that my brain is falling out my ears, and I am a firm believer that how we think, our spirituality, and our day-to-day passing thoughts, whether conscious or unconscious, have an important effect on our health.
I stop short of being a total Law of Attraction fan. I think that puts too much blame on us for not "creating what we want in life." It implies that we haven't thought the right things often enough, in the best way, that we don't really want what we say we want, etc.. There are just too many ways to turn Law of Attraction into "I suck for not having the life I want," which doesn't help anyone feel better in any way. Sometimes life happens.
The pineal gland is considered the Third Eye—our spiritual home—the seat of the soul. It has had connections to spirituality for centuries. I do not find it an accident that my third eye has been blown up like a balloon by a gooey cyst after three deaths in my family in three months, losing my home, putting down several old pets, and being suicidal. I do not find it an accident that my pituitary, which controls many hormones related to sexuality, is smashed against the wall and not functioning very well after a traumatic sexual past and a sexual violation by a therapist who was supposed to help me.
I do not find it a stretch to think that two years of being suicidal and worrying constantly is connected to what is going on in my brain. Which came first? Who knows. If I believe they are connected though, I can take mental, emotional, and spiritual steps to heal. I believe in the power of hypnosis. I believe in the mind/body/spirit wisdom that our modern society is just now beginning to relearn.
I believe we can heal ourselves—we just need to remember where we left the keys to the locks. We need to take some responsibility for our own health and look at things we can do to improve our lives rather than wallow in them another minute longer. Sometimes wallowing is necessary; sometimes it is habit. Luckily, we have the power to turn the times that are habit into something else. It isn't easy, especially when we feel lousy. Not being easy, luckily, is not the same as not being possible.